A Tale of a Boring Day : Men as Clothes

Today is extremely quiet.  I am literally alone with about five  dogs and curiously quite happy about it.   They’re beginning to stink, a little, but at least, they’re well-fed and full.  Besides, I don’t know where the dog shampoo is (That’s a poor excuse, I know).

It is the third day of my self-imposed lock-up and I am not tempted to go out.  Even for a movie or a nice, cold Starbucks Frap.    Sometimes, it’s nice to just be alone with your thoughts…Of hopes and dreams and secret fears and unspoken truths. Of forgotten pasts and infinite possibilities.

This kind of situation leads me to thinking about one of women’s controversial and most discussed topics: Men.

Men, for me, are like clothes.  I am not particularly trendy nor do I have the most conventional of body types, and so unlike most women, I do not particularly enjoy shopping for clothes.  I am a salesgirl’s nightmare. I would literally spend hours and hours searching for just the right clothes, going through different styles, sizes, and colors, wreaking havoc and endless piles of fitted, but unpurchased garments along the way.  Tired and frustrated, I often end up buying nothing.   

When I do find something that fits right, it is unable to sustain my  busy lifestyle or personality and eventually surrenders to normal wear and tear. Sometimes, when I am not really looking, something nice sneaks up on me, in the strangest of places, no less, and I buy it on impulse, only to find out, after I get home, or after a couple of uses, it doesn’t feel quite right, it has either shrunk or expanded and it doesn’t fit me anymore (or maybe it never really did in the first place), or really, it was meant for someone else.

I think, though, I may have gotten it wrong.

That maybe it’s not about the clothes, but being comfortable with yourself, first and foremost. I guess you have to figure yourself out first and find out what you really want, because if you’re not happy or comfortable with yourself, the clothes that you wear,  no matter how nice and glamorous, will  never feel right.